"Go Away I Am Not Home"

I know there's something happening inside, I can sense a change in me,
I hear a knocking at my door, afraid to get up and see. I am not ready
to be disturbed, my life is just fine as it is, so go away I am not home,
this time is controlled by me.

The knocking continues, it drives me insane, I force myself up to see,
a doctor waits outside my door, the fear builds up in me.
Go away I am not home, come back another time, I am not ready
to talk to you, I feel just great, I'm fine.

The fear continues, I know what's wrong, I just can't face it right
now, I need a little more time to reflect, before It breaks my bow.
These words have meaning that scare me so, I lack the
knowledge of what it all means, I try to allow my thoughts to be
in control, this fear just overwhelms me.

It's 'Cancer' I hear, which makes me think: "Death", the tears just fill
my soul, maybe there was a mistake that the results were
wrong, this is not my time to go. There was no mistake, the results
were correct, I have now become part of a group, my life will change
as I journey today, with the fear that has come into my room.

I have a choice as part of this group, to be one of the success
stories you hear, or just give up and allow this disease, to take
control of my thoughts and my fears.

The choice will be made by the person I am, and the support from
the people around, but the results will succeed when I choose to
move forward and conquer this problem I've found. No matter
the course or the actions to take, I'll go forward to win at all costs,
my life is too precious to give up and die without a fight, and not
showing myself who's the boss.

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